The disappoinment never ceases

I really cannot begin to say how upset I am; I can't say this will be the most uplifting, encouraging post ever!!!
We were supposed to move! I was ecstatic! I mean... 3 years + is a LONG freakin way coming! But... JUST as I allow myself to believe we are moving, and actually packing the disappointment hit me.
You see, we were supposed to move this coming week. Then we hear that NOPE, the people who are in the house, who was supposed to be kicked out, are planning to move out at the end of June. On top of that is time to fix up the house from whatever damage the prior tenants have done. And THEN we could move in. I don't ever expect to move in to this house, actually. I don't. There is NOTHING to lead me to believe that we will move out of this house until we hit the lottery. I am angry and bitter and unbelievably upset.
I am angry at where I am. I turn 25 years old next month and I can't help but feel bitter and upset about my entire life. Why am I the one who has to live here? I have Grace and Noah and JC and..... (anyone) ....???
How does anyone get in this place? No job, no place to live.

Change is inevitable

I am completely ready for the changes that God has in store for our family! We are moving by the end of the month (provided all goes well with the house!)- Praise the Lord!!! I have not seen the inside of the house yet, I just know if it has a bathroom, kitchen, an area to sleep and is habitable then we can jump in! If it's large enough maybe we will have a cook-out to kick off our new place to live. It's about time!

This week has been interesting to say the least. I had an interview with an interpreting agency and am scheduled to be evaluated to see where my skills are. Of course, I am very nervous! I really don't know where my skills are as of now and I don't really know where I can get a job Signing to help improve my skills! I had two sleep studies done this week. I was praying that after the first night the tech would let me know I didn't need to come back for the second night, unfortunately it didn't work out that way. I didn't sleep almost at all at either of them and today I have a raging headache from the cpap machine that they tested on me last night.

Today was supposed to be the morning that I run the Susan B. Komen 5K. Sadly, I was informed I shouldn't do the race this morning. I was completely bummed out. My told me "it's ok, there will always be other races." Which is very true, I am just bummed out. I have been training for THIS specific race since August 2009 and registered months ago, and sadly I had to bail out. It sucks!! I was excited, just the experience alone would have been phenomenal!! There was supposed to be a record of 50,000 people to show up! :(

I feel really lost right now since I don't really feel comfortable interpreting but I need to continue my skills. The optimal job would to have a job signing for the majority of my day. I can't lose my skills! I am really trying to pray about it, and be patient. I know all in His time I will hear. But I feel so lost and useless.

Grace and Noah's spring program for school was adorable. Their best friend, Jonah, was in it this time. All of them did a fantastic job and were so cute! Grace's last day EVER of preschool is May 27th and then later that night she will "graduate" from preschool. I can't believe she is so old now. I can't believe I am so old now! It's a bitter- sweet feeling all in itself!

JC is still struggling to find a job! We are struggling, but getting by I suppose. I know God has us under His wing. I want to know that we will be ok, but I just have to trust that we will be! That's my downfall- trusting.

More updates coming I presume! Have an awesome weekend all!

Ode to the world!! What a very interesting past few months! Long time, no update, so sorry!

Since February things have gone astray. Let's just say that life has gone from complicated, got worse and is now all about keeping ourselves afloat. God seems to have a lot of confidence in us that we won't fail Him, so we are doing all we can to keep above the water!

Our living arrangements have not changed. We are where we are, you would think I would have accepted this by now... Grace is now 5 years old and is smart as a whip. She was recently tested for Kindergarten at a private school here in town and did very well. No worries. Lots of prayers that things will go as planned and that we can provide tuition! Noah's 4th birthday is Sunday, May 2, and we are excited for him to turn 4 years old. And yet, I am sad because he is no longer a baby. I have known this for some time now; It's hard to see your little one getting older! Why didn't anyone tell me these years go by so quickly!?!?!?! *wink wink*

Jobs.... ho hum.... I feel useless. I went to school for this career and cannot even make it just barely. Of course, I feel like a failure. I feel it every day. I just keep praying that I hear what God wants me to do with my life right now.

Goals? Well, this past Saturday, April 24 I ran my first 5K!!!! I couldn't believe I made it! I couldn't believe I got to the end, I ran the whole way, I didn't collapse, and I wasn't last! I don't really know exactly what "good time" is for a first timer, or for a 5K, but my time was 37 minutes and 15 seconds! I have a time to beat and a goal to work towards for my next 5K which will be May 15! I am trying to keep the ball rolling so that I don't give up! I enjoy having a goal to work towards again, and I am excited to train with my friend, Julie- we used to be neighbors....way back when we lived on our own!

My sister in law and brother are expecting their first baby, due June 8th! I have a nephew from my brother's first marriage, but this baby will be a girl. And I know my nephew is already an awesome sibling to have! He is going to protect her with every bit of strength he has!
And finally, my mom will graduate May 8 with her BSN!! She has been working her rear- end off for so long! She got her LPN way back when I was a young child, when I went to college she also went back to get her RN. I had Grace. Then she graduated with her RN and started back at school after we dealt with my sickness and having Noah. So she is long over due for this occasion! I am so proud of her! Now she won't know what to do with herself!

Here are a few pics of Noahs's birthday pictures,My new hair cut- 8 inches off, Grace pretending she is pregnant- which is a daily ritual here, and my crossing the finish line victory look, maybe I can fit a pic of the kids and I, as well :D