There is a light- isn't there?

Well, things are certainly on the rise. JC's new job is keeping him occupied to the max. It's sad; I miss him, a lot. The kids are busy bees! Pre-school, swimming, gymnastics, the fun of every day life. I babysit a little boy now, on a part time basis. The kids love him and they interact so well!
Obviously, we have not moved yet. I feel like I mentally know that there is an end in sight, there is a place for our family, but things are frozen in time. I so desperately want to move out and start the family on our own; I need to be the mom and wife I was meant to be. I am constantly stressed out, yelling at someone or something, feeling like I will never get out- it hurts. I know that some day we will move out, but I feel so down and discouraged.
My health has taken a turn for the worst. The pain has returned and the misery is almost constant. I am trying to push through, but it's difficult. Especially because I have had to cut down on my exercising.
Prayers are always needed and welcomed....
Maybe some help to get myself back in to my positive thoughts could help... who knows!
Somewhere down this tunnel is a light..... isn't there?